Moon Meeting

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Moon Meeting

Yesterday morning, I met the moon in Walgreen’s.  She was looking for silver nail polish with glitter. 
“I lost my glasses,” she told me.

I helped her find a bottle called “Sheer Sparkle.”

She smelled like peppermint and lavender.  Her hair was long and white, bundled up in a messy bun.  She wore a baggy white t-shirt and wide leg jeans.

How did I know she was the moon?

She introduced herself, offering me her hand.  The nail polish on her fingernails was chipped.  Her nails were uneven and ragged.

“I am the moon,” she said.

I told her my name.

Her fingers felt cool and knobby, like an autumn branch.

“I’m in pretty good shape for 65,” she said, leaning forward to look in a mirror on the cosmetic counter.  She lifted the skin on her jawline and sighed.  “I’m beginning to sag a bit.”

Then she turned with a bright smile. “Would you have a buck or two for me?  I’m a little short today.  You know—waning.”

I paid for the nail polish.  She sailed up into the sky.

Joy

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Joy

“Then did I learn how existence could be cherish’d

 Strengthen’d and fed without the aid of joy.”

                                                                                                                            -Emily Bronte, Remembrance

Joy is not where I live

yet this life I hold like a damsel fly,

delicate, light-footed,

whose touch I thank each morning

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Joy is not what I speak,

but rituals, deeply rooted,

as the stream-fed cottonwood

affirm life’s leafy purpose

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Joy flies too high to grasp,

caught on an updraft, rising

on dappled, pointed wings

a lightness sought, inspired

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Joy is a bird rarely seen,

a fleeting lift of heart

while feet mark the dance

of a foreign time-signature

Where I’m From–Again

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I am from a no-God home with

a philosophical father

who lectured in ponderous tones

a mother who only liked Christmas

because her father was Italian.

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I am from a visit to an Italian hospital

where the winged blue nuns

sifted through peaceful sunbeams.

I am from 11 years old longing for that cloistered peace.

I am from a knowing there was more than

the right pleated skirt, the red ribbed sweater.

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I am from a meditating neighbor whose

tiny apartment hummed with a velvet love

that I coveted, and so learned the practice.

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I am from locking eyes with a living saint

whose gaze changed me forever.

Slight figure in orange robes, she opened

my first chakra and my heart.

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I am from chanting God’s names

with a thousand souls

the rising divine vibration of the universe.

Pete

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Anywhere I go, the songs follow me.

The man was a giant to my five-year-old eyes.

Tall and skinny, with a long-neck banjo

he threw his head back and sang,

hopped like a cricket around the stage.

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Camp songs carried his imprint.

We told Aunt Rhody

her goose was dead. The Midnight

special kept shining its light.

While he was blacklisted,

his songs rang like the hammer.

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And then it was all about

overcoming, and equality

and bringing ‘em home

from Vietnam. We were

singing. I taught his songs

to the next generation.

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How we all came together

on the river, once sewer water,

then a swimming pool.

The songs sailed up and down

the Hudson, sailing on into

choruses while he swapped songs

by the Sloop Club’s wood stove.

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Handing down clothes to his

granddaughter, visits to

the log cabin above the river,

cowering under Toshi’s gimlet eye

her sharp words, no nonsense

for her who managed it all.

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The song of a man threaded music

in silver strands through my living days,

the score of a life of giving

a shining pattern of humility and power.

Spiral

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On the spiral of life, on the rising side

I’ve rested in heavenly peace

The downward swing, an ocean tide

When pain and anger beg release

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On the spiral of life, in arms of prayer

My soul’s Companion rests within

Or sinking, enters hollow nights, where

solitude and sorrow win

Alone…

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lets peace in the door

it weaves around chair legs

rises like incense smoke

softens sharp edges

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Alone

lets silence illumine each room

filtered from skylights

it glows iridescent in darkness

pulsing sparks of light

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Alone leaves no one for fixing

loose faucet, gas leak

broken step, poison ivy

the handyman moved away

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Alone is uncut lawn, untrimmed edges

a house that accuses

a yard that demands

an ant trail in the workroom

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Alone

despite it all, is a river

peacefully flowing

silently glowing, a breath

from once upon a time

River’s Lock

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Tears not cried gather

in a river behind a lock’s

rusted gate

Years of tears held back

because the time was wrong

to grieve parent, home, pet,

choices, words unsaid

(tears) retained, condensed

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In a river behind a lock’s

rusted gate

salt tears gather, grow

stagnant, back up as

algae blooms, duckweed too

Water level rises

Rusted bars strain and groan

seeping green ooze

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Years of tears held back

because the time was wrong

a lesson in repression taught

learned too well

feelings buried

fears of hurt or anger

held like a punch to the gut

against repercussions

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To grieve parent, home, pet,

choices, words unsaid,

unshed tears collect

swirls of green slime, finally

the bars splinter, crack

open to release seventy

gushing, surging,

years of tears

It’s Simple, says David R. Hawkins

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First, desire.

Long for God.

More than security,

more than peace,

certainly more than pleasure.

Intense.  Constant. Longing.

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Second, forgiveness and gentleness.

For everyone. No exceptions.

Forgive parents, employers, neighbors.

Forgive the dog that pooed on your lawn.

Forgive yourself the cruelties, avoidances,

the unwitting mistakes.

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Third, surrender your will.

To God. Every moment.

Each thought.  Each feeling.

Each longing or deed.

Turn over stories, then paragraphs,

then ideas and concepts.

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Fourth, maintain focus.

Unrelenting, allow not a moment

of distraction from meditation

during ordinary activities.

Habitual, automatic, effortless

focus.

This is how to know God.

From

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I am from the Light,

the book tells me.

I thought I was from Los Angeles

sprawling city of smoggy skies,

the sharp edges of Bermuda grass

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I am from Perfect Love

pages proclaim, but

I recall a dusty field edged by citrus trees

where I hid from the sun

in a cool cement pipe

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I am from Absolute Truth

in words of prayer

while the scent of my father’s tobacco,

my mother’s Chanel No. 5

floated above parquet floors

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I am from Spirit

in the Sabbath song, but

I hear Sunday’s swish of sprinklers,

the rumble of a lawn mower,

dogs barking in the kennel