My first brush with the practice of Ho’oponopono occurred in 2015, at the Cayce Association for Research and Enlightenment (A.R.E.) in Virginia Beach. One of the workshop presenters, an Energy Medicine practitioner, mentioned it. I suppose I stored the seed away in my mind somewhere, and now it has begun to grow.
Recently, the reverend and practitioners in Agapeeast.org (part of Agape International Spiritual Center), whose classes and services I attend online, spoke of the power and usefulness of the short Ho’oponopono prayer (I’m sorry—Please forgive me—Thank you—I love you).
For quite a while I had been feeling flat during meditation, with no recognizable sense of Spirit. Reverend Victoria of Agapeeast taught the Ho’oponopono prayer. Several students in the class mentioned that it was their “go-to” prayer when their upset was too great to focus on any other method of prayer.
The continued stress of the COVID threat added to family troubles led me to try Ho’oponopono. What an experience! I found focus, ease, and peace in repeating the prayer. It’s been about a week since I’ve used the prayer instead of my traditional mantra. Now I look forward to each meditation session, extending it to forty minutes if the daily schedule permits. It’s like sinking into a scented, warm, cleansing bath. I recommend giving Ho’oponopono a try.
The prayer comes from Hawaiian tradition. Morrnah Nalamaku Simeona, a Hawaiian Kahuna (the one who guards the secret), adapted the practice for anyone to master and apply.
To learn more about her, the history of Ho’oponopono, and the technique, go to:
“The most powerful time to pray or meditate,” Satya tells me, “is between three and five a.m.” She leans back in the peacock chair. On her lap is a cat with the oddest markings, black and white splotches more like a cow than a cat. The dog, Belle, sits at Satya’s feet. It licks her toes with long, tender strokes.
“That must tickle,” I think, but Satya seems not to notice.
“That’s when the higher spirits are most accessible,” Satya adds.
“Like archangels?” I ask.
“Mmm. Uriel and Gabriel, mostly. Michael and Raphael are busy with the dead and dying.”
Am I really having this conversation? Satya’s patio is overhung with sprays of maple leaves turning red at the edges.
“I’m a morning person,” I say, “but that’s even a bit early for me. I like the quiet before the household wakes up.” Today I hold a mug of Satya’s homemade chai, a mixture of black tea, milk, turmeric, ginger and honey. It’s golden, warm in my hands and in my center.
Satya smiles with her wide pansy-blue eyes. “I’m usually up by three. The spirits wake me. I can feel their energy. It’s a lovely time of day, so new, unspoiled. So soft.”
“What do you do at three a.m.?” Sometimes I feel like I’m in the presence of a saint, like Mirabai or Teresa of Avila. And sometimes I think maybe they were right to commit her. But Satya does no harm to anyone.
“Oh, I take a shower. Make up some chai and sit with the animals a bit. Then I align my energy field for the day. And I meditate, of course. And pray. Do some visioning. Nothing special.”
I think of my morning, starting at about six a.m., when the sudden shrill of the alarm clock frightens me out of some odd, rambling dream. After my heart stops pounding, I get up, start the coffee, and make the kids’ lunches. Go back upstairs, give my husband a poke in the ribs and hustle into the bathroom before the kids take over.
When Satya told me her mother and sister had her committed, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. The questions popped into my head at the weirdest times, like when I was eating a crème filled chocolate doughnut on my coffee break, or brushing my teeth before bed.
Satya and I were on the Arts Council, and she was preparing to do a yoga demonstration for a Health and Wellness Fair in our town. Her daughter, Devi, and I worked as ticket-takers on the Saturday of the fair.
Toward the afternoon, the stream of visitors slowed to a trickle. The two of us sat together at the long table sipping lemonade. It was one of those terrible humid days that make me wonder why I ever left Arizona.
“Your mom is brave, doing yoga in this heat.”
“She’ll be wiped out tonight,” Devi agreed.
“How long has she been doing yoga, anyway?”
“She started in the psych hospital, I think,” Devi said. “I was little, maybe four or five.”
“And you were living with your grandma then?”
“For a little while. And then with my father. But that turned out bad.”
“You don’t have to answer this,” I said, “but I’m curious why your mother was in a hospital.”
“Oh, it’s no secret,” Devi said. “Gosh, it’s hot.” She lifted her curly hair off the back of her neck. “Mom was talking to the archangels. Which wouldn’t have been a problem—she still does—it’s just that she told the wrong people about it, like my grandma, the super WASP.” Devi gave a dry chuckle. “Ha, and worse yet, she told my grandma what the angels said about her.”
“Not good, I gather,” I was probing, but Devi didn’t seem to mind.
“Not good,” she confirmed. “So my grandma and my aunt Delia got my mom committed. Mom could have lied about her visions, but she wouldn’t deny the angels.”
“You said she still talks to the archangels?”
“Oh, yeah, but not as often now, what with the yoga classes and me to look after.”
“What’s it like, having Satya for a mom?” I asked. I thought of my own three kids, how the two teens are so easily embarrassed, like when I sing in the supermarket.
Devi turned to look at me directly. Her face was still and her usually wide, relaxed lips were drawn into a line. “What do you mean?”
I drew in a breath; aware I’d gone too far. “Well, uh, like she’s not what people would consider…”
Devi pushed her chair back and stood up. “I have to check in with her now,” she said, and walked away, her lemonade cup in one hand, and running the other hand through her curls.
Here are a series of stories about Satya from my archives.
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Satya 1: Tea with Satya
“My mother and my sister had me committed. They got custody of Devi.”
Satya said this the second time we had tea together. By then I’d met Devi, a tall, filled-out girl about sixteen years old. Devi’s eyes were a young egg blue behind black frame glasses.
Satya was tall, too. She gestured widely with her pale arms when she spoke. Her voice was smoky and deep, soothing like ocean waves.
We were drinking tea outdoors on her patio. Satya sat in a peacock fan-back rattan chair. Her black, curly hair looked stark against the white reeds of the chair. Her eyes were like an endless sky. After she spoke those words, she went silent and simply held my eyes unblinking until I had to glance away.
I wanted to know more: why had she been committed? How long? How did she get Devi back? I didn’t ask. Those eyes of hers stopped me. They seemed to be challenging me to ask a better question, a profound one. So I waited instead.
Satya took a sip of her ginger tea and said, “I don’t have any contact with my family now. It was too painful. There was so much bad energy. Easier to cut off contact completely.”
“Mmm,” I said, being as non-committal as possible. Thinking, “It’s not so easy to get someone committed. Or is it? A friend told me a long time ago that in some places, it takes only three signatures.
Satya’s dog pushed her nose through the flap of the dog door. It was a vizla, one of those golden dogs with the racing body, like a greyhound. She padded over to Satya and placed her head on Satya’s knee.
“This is Belle. She is my familiar. My sweet old dog Lazarus died two years ago and came back to me in her. It’s so good to have him back again.” Satya rubbed Belle’s head and traced a symbol on it with one pale finger.
“This is my last lifetime,” she said to me, in the same way she might have said, This is my left shoe. “That’s why I’ve had so much to deal with, you know, tying up all the loose ends.”
I nodded. It made perfect sense on that patio, with Belle waving her slim tail, with the taste of ginger and lemon prickling my throat, with the shifting shadows of leaves on the warm bricks.
“I don’t go out much here,” Satya said. “Too much bad energy out there,” she gestured toward town and the world beyond. “How did you like class today?” she asked.
The studio where Satya teaches yoga is behind her house. This is where we met when I signed up for classes.
“It was good for me. My back is looser than it’s been in weeks. No pain at all,” I answered.
Satya smiled. “You took some furniture out of your bedroom, right?”
I was sure I hadn’t told Satya about rearranging my bedroom. I had finally sold my mother’s oak dresser, after long agonizing days of indecision and guilt. I hated the piece and its memories, but I’d carried it with me for years, for moves all over the country.
“How did you know?” I asked.
Satya waved her hand. “I see things sometimes,” she said.
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If your middle grader has blown through Harry Potter, give them these to read.
Available on Amazon and from Handersen Publishing.
The importance of voice, the way a narrator or character speaks, is a topic that writers often discuss. How do we make voice authentic? How do we keep the voice consistent throughout a story? Does the voice go with the character?
Have you ever read a book of fiction, and thought, “No five-year-old child would speak like that?” It’s happened to me. My appraisal of the author immediately drops several notches. Or perhaps you’ve come across a dialogue that sounds stiff and unnatural, or a dull narrator? The ability to write voice well requires talent and skill and a good ear. M.T. Anderson has all three.
In his YA book, Feed, Anderson creates the voice of Titus, a teenage boy, living in a dystopian world. Anderson even invents a futuristic vocabulary for Titus and his friends.
Chapter 1 Your Face is not an Organ
We went to the moon to have fun, but the moon turned out to completely suck.
We went on a Friday, because there was shit-all to do at home. It was the beginning of spring break. Everything at home was boring. Link Arwaker was like, “I’m so null,” and Marty was all, “I’m null, too, unit,” but I mean we were all pretty null, because for the last like hour we’d been playing with three uninsulated wires that were coming out of the wall. We were trying to ride shocks off of them. So Marty told us that there was this fun place for lo-grav on the moon. Lo-grav can be kind of stupid, but this was supposed to be good. It was called the Ricochet Lounge. We thought we’d go for a few days with some of the girls and stay at a hotel and go dancing.
Here is the ISBN summary for Feed:
In a future where most people have computer implants in their heads to control their environment, a boy meets an unusual girl who is in serious trouble.
In Feed, Anderson has a lot to say about our consumer society and marketing, and the benefits and costs of technology.
In Anderson’s novel The Astonishing Life of Octavian Nothing,Traitor to the Nation, Octavian’s voice is educated and observant, as befits a boy raised by scientists in Boston during the American Revolution.
I was raised in a gaunt house with a garden; my earliest recollections are of floating lights in apple-trees.
I recall, in the orchard behind the house, orbs of flame rising through the black boughs and branches; they climbed, spiritous, and flickered out; my mother squeezed my hand with delight. We stood near the door to the ice-chamber.
Around the orchard and gardens stood a wall of some height, designed to repel the glance of idle curiosity and to keep us all from slipping away and running for freedom; though that, of course, I did not yet understand.
How doth all that seeks to rise burn itself to nothing.
The book description, in part, says:
… Set against the disquiet of Revolutionary Boston, M.T. Anderson’s extraordinary novel takes place at a time when American Patriots rioted and battled to win liberty while African slaves were entreated to risk their lives for a freedom they would never claim. The first of two parts, this deeply provocative novel reimagines the past as an eerie place that has startling resonance for readers today.
Octavian Nothing, Volume 1 won the National Book Award. Feed was a National Book Award finalist. As well as being a master of voice, M.T. Anderson will also invite you to think.
Tangled Magic 