Alex 4

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   Alex pulls the gray cap down over his eyebrows.  This snow can’t last forever.  His feet are wet and freezing in the sodden sneakers.  Gram was right about the boots, but Alex had been getting high with friends so he clicked off her voice on his iPhone.  Blah, blah, blah, that’s what they sounded like, Gram and Dad.  Blah, blah, blah.  Don’t you need your boots?  It’s snowing!  Have you looked for a job?  If we give you money, don’t use it to buy cigarettes.  Blah, blah, blah.

            Alex walks past houses all lit up and glowing warm against the night and the falling snow.  He imagines being inside with a happy, noisy family, and he knows he’d like it for an hour or so.  But then he’d start to feel edgy, and everyone would be looking at him, criticizing his clothes or what he did, and asking him about his life.  He’d have to leave.  Like Christmas Day at Gram’s.  All the noise and laughter and all those questions about plans and jobs and school.  Blah, blah, blah.  Alex had left before the pies and ice cream.

            Alex says aloud, “I’m a survivor.”  He knows he can stretch twenty bucks into two or three days of hanging out in town.  His friend at the taco place slips him the leftovers.  And the diner has a breakfast special that’s under $5.00.  He gets by.  His stuff is stashed behind the couch in the coffee bar.  He doesn’t have much stuff.  Alex is proud that he’s not attached to material objects.  Except his necklace with the old house key.  This is one thing he can’t lose.  It opens the door to his mom’s loft in the City.  Right now he’s pissed at her because she kicked him out.  But he may want to go hang out there sometime.

            Alex bums a cigarette off a drunk student who is leaning against the wall outside of the pub.  He keeps walking.  His iPhone dings with a text message.  It’s from Gram.  R U OK?  Call me.  Alex decides not to answer.  He already has a place to stay tonight.  He picked up this coed from NYU.  It’s her last night before the dorms reopen down on Union Square.  She’s got a friend whose roommate is out of town.  Alex can sleep in the girl’s bed for one night.  Lisa—that’s the coed’s name—says he can stay there if he takes a shower first.  Alex needs the bed but he’s a bit insulted.  Like he smells or something.  How long has he been wearing these clothes anyway?  When did he and Gram choose them at the Salvation Army?  Was it a week ago?  They picked out a good shirt, a jacket and tie, and a pair of black slacks.  The clothes were supposed to be for job-hunting.  Job-hunting.  That’s another one of those interminable lectures:  wash your hair, brush your teeth.  Always check back with the secretary or the manager.  Blah, blah, blah.  They just never shut up.

Alex 2

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“But Dad, you don’t get it.  Billy’s friend says that I have to call the judge.  I can plead guilty and then we won’t be wasting his time in court.”  Alex blows into the fingers that are not holding the iPhone.  It’s really cold on the street corner.

            “Alex, it’s Sunday.  You can’t call anyone at court today.  Besides, I don’t think that’s an acceptable procedure.”

            “Dad, I have to talk to the judge.  Do you have his number?”

            “No, I don’t, Alex.  It’s probably unlisted, and I’m sure the judge has a secretary who takes his calls.”

            “Look, I get that I’m not innocent.  I’ll just cop to driving with a suspended license and take the fine.”

            “We’re hoping that the judge will be lenient, given your medical history.  We talked about that, remember?  I’d like to get that $500 fine reduced,” says Alex’s father.

            “Jeez, Dad!  All you care about is the money.  You’re gonna let me go to jail for thirty days.  That really sucks!”

            “That’s not what I said, Alex.”

            Alex clicks off the iPhone.  His dad is such a jerk.  Billy’s friend said to talk to the judge.  And anyway, the new doctor gave Alex a clean bill of health.  Alex can barely remember the first time they picked him up.  He’d done something—ecstasy?—and he was out on the flats, in a cornfield, and the ball of light came down out of the sky and the aliens came and touched him.  After that, he got back in town somehow, and his dad and Gram met him a restaurant.  All the people he saw had three eyes, and Alex had this weird taste in his mouth, so he was spitting it out on the table.  Dad got the cops to take him into the ER.  Big guys, practically lifted him up like a suitcase and carried him to their car.  Handcuffs and everything.  It was terrifying. 

            Alex shakes his head.  He touches the spot Jack Kerouac stabbed and erases the thought.  It works to get rid of thoughts and dreams, too.  It’s too damn cold outside so Alex heads for the coffee bar.  He has his stuff stashed behind one of the couches.  Maybe Deborah is still in town.  She’s good for a coffee and a snack.  He’ll give her a call.            

The iPhone meows.  It’s a text message from Gram:  Job apps?  Where R U staying 2nite?  Alex frowns.  He’s been looking—kind of.  He talked to Jake who has a friend who works at the smoothie place.  He even got an application from the music store, but he can’t remember where it is.  Not in his pocket.  Maybe it’s in the tent.  He’ll look later.  Meanwhile, he’ll call Deborah.  It’d be great to get laid tonight.

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Alex leans back on the stained sofa.  The young woman opposite him leans forward.  She is definitely interested.

            “Yeah, I’m into a Kerouac life-style.” Alex nods, giving her his most sexy smile. “You know, keeping a journal, moving around.”

            “You’re a writer?  Gathering material?”  she puts in, somewhat breathless.

 He takes a sip of his coffee, thinks, ‘oh, have I got her.’  He asks, “You live around here?”

            “Not really.  I’m at NYU.  I’m just visiting my parents during the winter break.”

            Alex knows he has to be careful because she might ask to see his work.  He did have a small pocket size notebook, but he lost it somewhere, maybe in the OWS tents.  Like his hat, that fine fedora he was wearing.  He can’t find the hat either.  But this girl, what’s her name?  Deborah.  If he plays it right, he could have a warm place to stay tonight.

            “The thing is, you know, it’s about getting out there and living, not sitting for hours in front of a screen,” Alex says.

            Deborah loses her smile and sits back.

            ‘Uh-oh,’ Alex thinks. ‘She must be a techie.’

            “I’m a comp sci major,” Deborah says, all prickly.

            Alex pulls his iPhone out of his pocket.  “Cool.  Check out this new app.”

            Deborah has to move next to him to see.

            Alex awakens on a couch in a strange room.  He is enmeshed in a dream in which a man who might have been Jack Kerouac took a huge knife and plunged it into Alex’s skull.  The Kerouac type was telling Alex to forget his dreams.  Alex touches the spot on his head above his left ear and the Kerouac dream is erased from his memory.

            The room is a spare storage room in the house that belongs to Deborah’s parents.  Alex didn’t hit the jackpot, but he did win a bed for the night.  Plus the parents are kind of old hippie types who went to college here and never left.  The house is outside of town, with no cell phone reception.  Alex thinks he’ll maybe write a road book. 

            Deborah drops Alex back in town.  He’s feeling good after coffee and a shower.  He is out of smokes again, so he calls Gram on his iPhone.

            “Hi, Gram.  I’m fine, but I’m a little hungry.”  That’s all he has to say.  She meets him at the diner.

            Gram is really his father’s stepmother, but she’s as good as a real one.  Alex sees her sitting in a booth by a window.  He slides onto the bench.  She looks him over.

            “You’re looking a lot cleaner than the last time I saw you,” she says.

            “Yep.  I got a shower this morning.”

            “Where did you sleep last night?” Gram asks. “You weren’t at the park.”

            “I slept at my friend’s house.”         

            “What friend is this?”

            “Uh—I can’t tell you the name,” Alex says.

            He orders a big breakfast: two eggs, sausage, and hash browns with toast.

            “Alex, you’ve been here for three weeks.  As far as I can tell, you’ve just been hanging out and couch-surfing.  Did you make any job applications?”

            “Yeah, well, I talked to my friend Marty, and he said he could hook me up with some guys at the computer depot.”

            “And?”

            “I’m going to call him today.  He’s been out of town.”

            Gram has those lines between her eyebrows.  “Alex, this is not part of our agreement.  You said you were going to fill out applications at some places in town.”

            “God, Gram, I’m going to, OK?”

            “But not wearing that outfit,” Gram says.  Her mouth is sewed up tight.  “And by the way, when was the last time you changed your clothes?”

            Alex throws down his fork.  “I can’t have this conversation right now.”  He picks up his coat.  “Can I have a few bucks?”

            “I told you last time that I’ll buy you things you need, but I’m not handing you cash,” Gram says.

            Alex shoves his arms into his coat.  “You and Dad, you stole four years of my life,” he says.  He picks up the four halves of toast and wraps them in a napkin.

            “Alex, you wouldn’t have been admitted if you had been healthy,” she says, but the words land on Alex’s back.

            He strides down the street in angry boots, looking for someone who will bum him a cigarette.  He really needs a smoke.

            There’s Jack Kerouac coming out of the music store.  He stops to light a cigarette.

            “Hey, Jack!”  Alex says.  “Can I bum a smoke?”

            The man looks at Alex, eyebrows up.  “Sorry, bud.  My name’s not Jack.  But you can have this one.”  He hands the lit cigarette to Alex.            

“Thanks, man.”  Alex takes a long drag off the Marlboro.